I feel a BLAH post coming on......

Psalm 37:25 (Amplified Bible)
I have been young and now am old, yet have I not seen the [uncompromisingly] righteous forsaken or their seed begging bread.

How many of you know that we serve a God of provision? I'm not just talking about financial or material things here. God provides. He has given us more than we could have ever imagined in Jesus. More than we ever could think we ever needed. Plus. In addition. And then some. What sticks out to me about the above verse is UNCOMPROMISINGLY...oh look there is a condition....we must be in line with the first part to receive the promise of the second. How many times have we in our own power gone to lengths or taken paths that have not been God's will for our lives, possibly compromising ourselves or our integrity... AND then turn to Him and say... "OK God I feel forsaken...things are rough for me right now. You didn't hold up your end of the bargain!" TELL ME I'M NOT JUST TALKING TO MYSELF HERE! I've doubted His love and His care for me when times have gotten hard. I've tried to plan all KINDS of solutions to get myself out of all kinds of situations. But all in all, what I've not done is TRUST Him to be who He says He is. He knows the number of hairs coming out of my scalp. He fashioned the mind that I dare use to doubt Him. He is not out to get me! He cares for issues that I don't even know I have. He cares for what I have now and what I have coming down the road. There is a choice that must be made when living a life dedicated to Christ, we must choose to believe and act and line ourselves up with the difficulties, the challenges, the "but it hurts for me to do that Daddy's" to get to the point where those "blessings" abundantly flow. Now of course I'm not saying we EARN anything God gives, He has given us ALL things freely in Christ...but we also cannot lose sight in that we must be obedient to that which He calls us to be obedient to or else we disqualify ourselves for the promises...disobedience puts us on the path to more refining moments, more purging, more things that may be unsavory to get us to turn around and run to our Father. So here's the deal....I know enough to know that despite what I see around me or what I feel is the case...God is who He is. He is and has always and will always be faithful to me. He will never leave me and He will always take me back no matter how or why I stray. I'm not perfect and we both know it. I choose to believe that He will never leave me and that whatever He gives me IS for my good and for his GLORY.