It started out as an idea....

That I had when I was 20 years old. "I'd like to be a cosmetologist one day" I've always liked doing hair and playing in makeup...why not? For the next few years, I read cosmetology text books, I was permitted to assist my friends in doing wedding parties, spent some time at salons asking questions and watching transformations. I was afraid to actually venture out into doing it for a while though. Being a Christian stay at home mommy meant that I could not (nor should I WANT to) pursue a career outside of the home. I actually felt horrible for having the desire. I felt sooooo guilty. I put a GREAT DEAL of thought and prayer and counsel into the choice to start school. I started August 6, 2007. The road has been paved with ups and downs, happiness and sadness, job gains and losses, withdrawing, moving across the country, and tomorrow I will be done with school. TOMORROW. HOURS FROM THIS MOMENT!!!! I really cannot even believe it. I think it will hit me when I clock out tomorrow or when I get up on Friday morning and realize that I don't HAVE to go to school. I did it. I am so proud of myself. I've been saying that I feel like I belong to a different group of people, the people that dream and set and accomplish goals. It sounds soo corny but I feel like I am free to dream.....like I can put my heart, mind, and effort into something and accomplish it! I know it sounds corny, I'm just being open. My life is getting ready to change...and with that change comes a whole other set of obstacles, but I believe I will make it through. I'm so greatful that I have had friends support me this whole journey, it feels so very wonderful to have people in my life that love me and support me in my life! They say it takes a village to raise a child, and I'm finding the same to be true for a mommy going back to school...it takes the support of some awesome people!

It's time for me to go to bed. I just had to get all of this out of my head before doing so. Next time I blog, I'll be a cosmetology school GRADUATE! YOWZA!!!!!!!


Love you, mean it.

Kamella.