People always come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do...When someone is in your life for a REASON,it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly.They have come to assist you through a difficulty,or to provide you with guidance and support,to aid you physically, emotionally, or even spiritually.They may seem like a godsend to you, and they are.They are there for the reason you need them to be....Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time,this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end....Sometimes they die. Sometimes they just walk away.Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand.What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done.The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on....When people come into your life for a SEASON,it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn.They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.They may teach you something you have never done.They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.And like Spring turns to Summer and Summer to Fall, the season eventually ends....LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons;those things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person/people (anyway);and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas in your life.It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being a part of my life.

-Could not determine the original author. I didn't write it.


I just went through the reason stage of a relationship. God answered an unspoken desire of my heart in this time. Never saw it coming, then it was upon me, and now its over. It ended abruptly, but it was bound to end anyway. There really is no predetermined way to decide how these 'reason' things end. I'm grateful (warmly or deeply appreciative of kindness or benefits received; thankful) for what this relationship afforded me, taught me, showed me, the personal way I was able to grow. But as the poem reads, it is now time to move on. I have so much peace about this. I am satisfied with the outcome. To God, I say thank you for answering the unspoken prayer of my heart, showing me that you truly care for every aspect of my being. And to my friend, blessings on your journey as you go through your own reason, season, and lifetime relationships. Thank you for being a part of my life, you have served your purpose.

I feel a BLAH post coming on......

Psalm 37:25 (Amplified Bible)
I have been young and now am old, yet have I not seen the [uncompromisingly] righteous forsaken or their seed begging bread.

How many of you know that we serve a God of provision? I'm not just talking about financial or material things here. God provides. He has given us more than we could have ever imagined in Jesus. More than we ever could think we ever needed. Plus. In addition. And then some. What sticks out to me about the above verse is UNCOMPROMISINGLY...oh look there is a condition....we must be in line with the first part to receive the promise of the second. How many times have we in our own power gone to lengths or taken paths that have not been God's will for our lives, possibly compromising ourselves or our integrity... AND then turn to Him and say... "OK God I feel forsaken...things are rough for me right now. You didn't hold up your end of the bargain!" TELL ME I'M NOT JUST TALKING TO MYSELF HERE! I've doubted His love and His care for me when times have gotten hard. I've tried to plan all KINDS of solutions to get myself out of all kinds of situations. But all in all, what I've not done is TRUST Him to be who He says He is. He knows the number of hairs coming out of my scalp. He fashioned the mind that I dare use to doubt Him. He is not out to get me! He cares for issues that I don't even know I have. He cares for what I have now and what I have coming down the road. There is a choice that must be made when living a life dedicated to Christ, we must choose to believe and act and line ourselves up with the difficulties, the challenges, the "but it hurts for me to do that Daddy's" to get to the point where those "blessings" abundantly flow. Now of course I'm not saying we EARN anything God gives, He has given us ALL things freely in Christ...but we also cannot lose sight in that we must be obedient to that which He calls us to be obedient to or else we disqualify ourselves for the promises...disobedience puts us on the path to more refining moments, more purging, more things that may be unsavory to get us to turn around and run to our Father. So here's the deal....I know enough to know that despite what I see around me or what I feel is the case...God is who He is. He is and has always and will always be faithful to me. He will never leave me and He will always take me back no matter how or why I stray. I'm not perfect and we both know it. I choose to believe that He will never leave me and that whatever He gives me IS for my good and for his GLORY.

It started out as an idea....

That I had when I was 20 years old. "I'd like to be a cosmetologist one day" I've always liked doing hair and playing in makeup...why not? For the next few years, I read cosmetology text books, I was permitted to assist my friends in doing wedding parties, spent some time at salons asking questions and watching transformations. I was afraid to actually venture out into doing it for a while though. Being a Christian stay at home mommy meant that I could not (nor should I WANT to) pursue a career outside of the home. I actually felt horrible for having the desire. I felt sooooo guilty. I put a GREAT DEAL of thought and prayer and counsel into the choice to start school. I started August 6, 2007. The road has been paved with ups and downs, happiness and sadness, job gains and losses, withdrawing, moving across the country, and tomorrow I will be done with school. TOMORROW. HOURS FROM THIS MOMENT!!!! I really cannot even believe it. I think it will hit me when I clock out tomorrow or when I get up on Friday morning and realize that I don't HAVE to go to school. I did it. I am so proud of myself. I've been saying that I feel like I belong to a different group of people, the people that dream and set and accomplish goals. It sounds soo corny but I feel like I am free to dream.....like I can put my heart, mind, and effort into something and accomplish it! I know it sounds corny, I'm just being open. My life is getting ready to change...and with that change comes a whole other set of obstacles, but I believe I will make it through. I'm so greatful that I have had friends support me this whole journey, it feels so very wonderful to have people in my life that love me and support me in my life! They say it takes a village to raise a child, and I'm finding the same to be true for a mommy going back to school...it takes the support of some awesome people!

It's time for me to go to bed. I just had to get all of this out of my head before doing so. Next time I blog, I'll be a cosmetology school GRADUATE! YOWZA!!!!!!!


Love you, mean it.

Kamella.